Weight-wise, I’m down another 1.5 lbs, a total of 12.5 lbs since 1/1/05. I’m pretty jazzed! I’m happy because it’s coming off slow and steady, instead of super fast. Don’t want any gall stone problems, or other issues that could arise, should you drop weight too quickly.
Today, I am attending a memorial service for a friend’s grandfather. I’m just going to keep telling myself it’s a celebration of his life, don’t cry! But I’m sure that will last all of 2.2 seconds, so I’m bringing kleenex. I hate crying at funerals. Mel’s in heaven, no longer in pain, and we will get to see him when it’s our turn to go. I truly believe this, without a shadow of a doubt. I cry because everyone else around me is crying. So unless people can refrain from losing it, which won’t happen, I’m going to be right there with them. My friend will be giving the eulogy. I’m sure it will beautifully depict Mel’s life and how much he meant to everyone. Wait. I’m going to correct myself. “…how much he means to everyone.” Past tense is so cruel. It sounds as though we’ll never see him again, as if he’s gone forever, only a memory, and that’s not the case. He’s alive and well in the kingdom of God, and we will see him again. Screw the past tense. Mel had a wonderful life.
After the memorial, there’s a big shindig back at the family’s house. Booze, folk, a big pool table, lots of food, etc. That’s what Mel wanted.
I want to be able to handle death better. I should focus on the fact that the person that has passed isn’t gone forever. We just have to wait a little bit to see him again.
I’m so ready for a trip to the beach. I want to laze about the sand, listen to the ocean, and feel the warm sun on me. I’m so ready for spring. We’ve had wonderful weather here - nothing but sun and 60 degree weather. Can’t beat that for February! Eat your heart out, east coast.