Out of suspension
Today was my first official weigh in. I’ve decided to weigh myself at Curves before my workout on Mondays, since that was my first official weigh in one week ago from today. I’m very proud of myself, because I feel I’ve really been true to myself for the first time in a long, long while. This week’s been tough in some ways, not so tough in others. Some of the things that were tough were things I hadn’t expected, and other things I thought may have be real tough, were not. I worked very hard this past week on doing a minimum of thirty minutes of activity every day during the work week (I give myself Saturday and Sunday off) and did great on eating smaller portions. One of the biggest surprises that came easy to me was really listening to my body. Most of the time when I craved food, I wasn’t hungry. I knew that eating out of boredom was always a bad habit of mine, but until that moment when I really made a concious effort to eat only when I was hungry, did I realize just how much my eating was tied to emotion. Focusing on eating only when I was hungry wasn’t as hard as I thought it might be, though there are still the weaknesses here and there. This time of year is the worst - it’s like a damn candy store in every cubicle you pass. Craving a Snickers? Don’t you worry - John’s got it at his desk, two cubes up and to the right. I’ve done good though - I limit myself to one “fun-sized” M&M pack per day. Hey, a girl can’t go without her sweets, now can she?
This is going to be a lengthy process, but I’m ready for the long haul. I have to undo something that I spent twenty-eight years doing to myself, so I know this isn’t something that will fix itself over night, or even in years. I have a feeling it will be a daily struggle for the rest of my life, and that’s fine. As long as I can be healthier. So, with all that, I’m pretty proud of my progress:
Start Weight as of 10/17/05: 288 lbs
Weight as of 10/24/05: 284 lbs
Lost: -4 lbs
Total loss to date: 4 lbs
